Thanks to all who responded to my post.....I'm getting use to it as each day passes. You guys have been somewhat like a therapy session to me... :p
However, I have learned not to trust anyone and to keep my gear in a safer place and hidden.
My insurance deduct was above what I lost- maybe next time I will know better and double the total loss of gear! Kidding of course- I have found a possible solution to starting over- It is just a real pain in the ass to rebuild and as of late remind myself that I "Oh, I can't go cause I'm missing my gear"!
Also my predictament is very minor compared to what alot of people deal with in regards to cancer, etc.

Mac