thanks guys...today was a bit better...been trying to stay busy...thanks for letting me get all this out...i never thought a dog that drove me insane every day of my life would effect me this way...i only thought he was like 10% mine...come to find out he was more like 40% mine...i just never saw it...i knew how much he wanted tony to be home also, but i never saw that it was also...tony said he was waiting for me to come home every night but i didnt realize he was waiting for me to come home for all of us to be complete...

i guess i never realized how much he was part of our lives..i just thought he was mostly tonys life...and tonys dog...i always forgot when tony and i spilt up for 9 months the dog didnt eat for a week..poor dog..i never really belived that story till i had to put him down

thanks for letting me get this out..i now really understand everyones loss with thier best freinds im sorry for everyones loss and i hope i havent tore up some old memorys...but it may be good for a few