I appreciate everything you guys have shared and the thought you've put into it. When and if the day comes that I think I can make the occational post without lighting my hair on fire and opening a vein into my keyboard I'll do it. I conquered my online porn problem (pretty much), perhaps I can conquer my dependancy for the forum as well. Time will tell.

Here are my concerns: My mentality is "higher, harder, faster." I'm open, I'm honest and I'm an attention whore and I do agree that alot of what comes out of my mouth is offensive. It's done on purpose for effect. If I keep going from where I'm at, at this point in time I'm just going to up the bar by saying more outragous, more offensive stuff. If I didn't know me, I probably wouldn't like me either based on my board persona.

I need to chill for a spell and pursue some other interests like snowboarding. It's something I can do with my family. Stepping away from the board will also allow me to get my mind right here at work. The "boys" have never said a single word to me about the time I've spent here online and my choosing to deal with it on my own says alot about the company I work for.

Stay cool, ya'll.