REEL... Hang in there dude. My best freinds dad just beat it. I think his attitude was the cure. After he had his operation last spring we all flew up for a week at rivers inlet looking for kings in july. It was good to be with him because he had us pretty spooked but seems like everthing will be fine. Your posts sound like your the type to keep your chin up and work thru it. He asked that "us boys" all over 40 go and get it ourselves checked out, so we did. Good advice