looked at the CZ P 09 and P07, very well built, not a good choice for me for carry...

looked at the FNS 40, nice gun, kinda getting expensive...

looked at the HK VP40, again nice gun, same deal...

the Sig P2022 i looked at, again, didnt have any safeties, just the decocker, long trigger pull to get the first shot off if hammer is down, but the no safety thing i dont like..

looked again at the XD Mod 2 (4 inch), felt excellent, same with the XDM (same gun different trigger), the XDS tho didnt fit me right, felt a little small...

thinking im gonna go with a XD 40, that HK tho wasnt bad...

theres also the option of getting a used gun, but in this situation, im thinking that may be a bad idea....