Thanks to all of you,

Reading this right now finally aloud me to release and let some tears run, I needed it. I know it's the very best thing that could have happened , she was tired and ready and she gave me the gift of going quickly without making herself and me suffer. I was ready to do whatever I had to do, I was thinking every day that it could be the last one and just tried to make her feel loved every day. She was my dog and it was my job...

Dan, your kind words especially mean the most for whatever reason...

Thank you all so much I am a mess at this moment, her tracks are all over in the mud around my house waiting to be washed out in the next rain, I kept some hair in the brush from when I brushed her right before she died, (I know that's insane).

I already have a deposit down on a new healer puppy, I know I can't replace her but maybe getting buisy with a new puppy next month will help. I am hurting pretty bad, no regrets but not having her follow me around and demanding being pet really hurts. I noticed it right away.

In the morning I would give her some of my breakfast before I put her outside, then she would wait till I came home from work, be by my side untill I came in for the night, then I would let her in about 8 pm and I fed her, and she would spend time with the family until bed, every day the same thing....