In 2016 I was suicidal every day for over a year. I talked about it ,didn't keep it a secret,and sought help for it. I am lucky to have a great support group around me. I deal with issues that I must work hard every day to overcome. One day I had a complete breakdown and since that day I haven't been suicidal. I get agoraphobic at times and struggle to do things by myself. PTSD is real,I can't imagine what our soldiers go through,especially my grandfathers' generation after world war 2. Those guys didn't talk much about it and it saddens me. I know this isn't in keeping with my normal "Vapid" persona here on the DS. If anyone reads this you are never alone no matter what you feel. Reach out to someone. Life can be really really good. It can also be really fkn hard. I'm gonna go have lunch with my momma. Later.