I didn't know what to expect with my revelation here. I wanted it to be both an explaination and a catalist for a change to the better for me. But I am humbled and appreciative of the nice responses I've gotten here! It's going to help me conquer the tough pain med situation and my affrontive style in posts, AND in off the board circumstances.

If anyone else is going thru a similar situation, feel free to e-mail me (above icon) and we can help each other get thru it. Thanks so much for the understanding and support. - Steve