Perception. Its everything. Always be the hard target and not the soft target.

Live how you want to live man. When I first pm'd you I thought you were a pretty cool guy and all. When threads like this come up and you fuel the fire you are alienating yourself from a community that has an outstanding amount of knowledge and experience. That is the true essence of a forums. Whether it be about how to treat herpes or how to catch herpes. Its all about accessing the wealth of knowledge members have via the interwebs. I read that you haven't got a winter run yet. I haven't either but I have made friends with people that have lots of experience and I will get one as soon as I can get a full day out on a river I know.

Its not impossible to regain or earn your way back up but your efforts would have to start meow. Not later, right meow.

Trust me, I learned from this book.