something to think about...

i was watching a movie last night, called "Afterlife", it was a documentary on life after death, and near death expieriences... quite interesting to say the least.. over 600 people were interviewed, and each shared a pretty similar story... some had floated "above" their bodies, and were watching the events happening and such, and what was remarkable, is that blind people, who were born blind even saw things, and doctors still cant explain that part of it...

you never really think about things untill something happens, and most people think that they will just keep waking up, and keeping on with their lives as normal.. but thats not always the case, and things happen for a reason i believe... what those reasons are, i dont know, but im not one to question them either...

i do believe something happens when we die, and what that is, i dont know either, but there has to be something after this...

the reason im writing this, is what happened this morning, otherwise it would have just been another documentary under the belt, and on with the normal routine...

my GF Katie, woke up at 7:47 today, i havent been sleeping well, and i rolled over and asked her if she was coming back to bed... she said yeah, but that usually means "no, just go back to sleep"... so im kinda just thinkin and slowly falling asleep which seems like a couple hours... at 8:00 i hear this hysterical crying, and at first, it didnt click, but something was off and i immeadiately fully awoke and turned over to my GF in the bedroom door screaming and crying...

her younger brother Johnny was found by their father this morning at around 5:30... him and her other brother and dad had just spent 3 weeks up in BC fishing, and came back on the 23rd... 10 years ago, they had lost their mother to Gullian Barre Syndrome, and it rattled all of them, but i think it took its toll on Johnny the worst... he had gotten his Business degree a couple years ago, but got involved with some things that he couldnt take control of.... and it inevitably took him...now, thier family is devastated beyond belief, as its coming up on the 10th anniversary of their mothers death, and theri 67 year old Marine father, has to bury his 25 year old son...

i know how i have felt over the years losing who ive lost, what was said, what was done, ect... but this, this is truely a test for me... i have been with Katie for 6 years almost, and plan on marrying her, so she is already treated as if she is my wife.... i have never been in a realationship with someone and had something of this nature happen... i certianly know how i would feel if my brother died, but what do you say to your other, when something like this happens... this is going to be one hell of a challenge, and a test on alot of things...

one thing is for certian while you are allowed to be on this earth.. you make the most of your time, and treat others with love and respect... there may be a point in time where you may want to do something that you didnt previously, but that point in time may be too late for you to do it...

honestly, this all seems like it didnt happen, like its a dream... but i know its not a dream, its reality, and its life.... and death... and what comes after that...

this is not me asking for sympathy, as nothing has happened for me, what i am asking of you, is that you keep my GF and her family in your thoughts over this rough period... which hasnt even started yet...a situation like this will truely test your faith, and your willingness to move forward, especially when alot of bad has already happened to you previously... her family had to watch her mother deteriorate into nothing, and then their uncle passed at the UW speech a couple years ago, and now this... i especially feel bad for their father, no parent should have to bury their children.. ever... under any circumstances... but that isnt for me, nor anyone to decide, that is left to god... you go, when he says you go... you stay, when he gives you permission to stay....

make the most of your lives, tell everyone you care about that you love them every single chance you get... because at some point, it will be too late...