i dont think its really even set in yet... Katie is acting really weird, dazed look on her face and all... she wanted me to come to the store with her before she left, so i did, we were talking about the whole situation and all... and she just busts out laughing... at first im like wtf? then i asked what she was laughing about, and it was something with her brother, she kinda mumbled it and i didnt really want to pressure her too much so i just listened and agreed....

she just left to go to her dads, i figured i would hang here and let them be together... before she left she said her dad told her he was devastated... i have no doubt that he is... im not really looking forward to how she acts when she comes home from this tho, but i will handle it like any man would take care of their woman...

ive dealt with losing alot of dear people over the last few years, but dealing with another persons loss that is of this nature, is all new to me... im usually up for any and all challenges, but im most certianly not wanting to deal with this one... i have to deal with it yes, and i will, just not liking where this has the potential to go...

i could be worrying about nothing, infact, this could make our relationship stronger, but im not her, and i dont control her thoughts and emotions... this one sure has made me think about things differently thats for sure... and we arent even 12 hours into it... what the coming days hold are beyond me... i just hope her family makes it through this... because its really going to suck when it sets in...