Rory, at the risk of piling on, please allow me to ask you to consider something. Please, please, please, go fishing, make love to your wife, do something with your kids, just go out and commune with nature for a while. Anything to try and get you back to some semblance of reality. Your last post in this thread makes me very concerned over the state of your mental health. If you really believe what you said, you need Professional help. If it is just your idea of fun, please see the suggestions above.