RH,

Ain't none of us getting out of here alive.

Sorry for your GF's loss, presumably your loss too if you two are already a couple. I think you should have gone with your GF to her family. But that train left the station. Just be there and offer whatever and any support that you can, emotional and material. As for shoulda', woulda', coulda', it's a natural feeling, but just holds the healing back. Try to keep things moving forward if you can.

Good luck. You have one drama filled life, that is for sure.

Sg