SD, i dont even smoke anything till past 8pm usually, i dont even drink any beer anymore before 7:30 or 8pm... i used to do both all day long, and that was on weekends and such WHILE i was working full time..

i dont even smoke or drink while on the river anymore, i dont need anything affecting my abilities while doing it...

the fact of the matter is i have changed for the better, and it has nothing to do with laziness or unmotivation...

if i were such a sh!tty person, and stupid, and worthless, how on earth could i have a girlfriend thats 2 quarters away from her degree in the Medical field that ive been with for 8 years, friends that always want me to go fishing, and even come and pick me up to take me, that i dont even ask but they do because ive known them 20 years, and they know the real me, not some assholes on the internets assumption... how would that work?

it works because everything everyone thinks, is wrong... thats how..

thinking and knowing are 2 different things, if you think someone is something they arent, you are an idiot, if you know someone is something they are, well you have figured it out...