Not bugging you specifically, about anything. Just making casual observations from up here in the cheap seats. You can hold onto the past which is very evident what you are going to do. Underneath all this ribbing is some knowledge from people who have been there and done that. You seem to think you are special in that your life is so rough you can't make any headway. In reality, what you're going thru and what you've been thru is just life. It ain't fair, but people who can move forward rather than constantly looking back are going to live a full life. Take it for what it's worth to you. You say you have plans, but you always bring up the past. The only thing I learn from my past are mistakes and successes. From those, my future is shaped more positive than my past.

Remember, we only get 1 shot at this. Good luck.